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Great Day!!!

  • Aug. 16th, 2012 at 7:21 PM
give me some
Was so worried about today with my Regional Trainer being at my store but it couldn't have gone better.  She has my back with me becoming a manager at my center just hope my new DDO is good with it.  Tomorrow should be fun I'm technically in charge till further notice. So all that means is I get to do everything at the same pay till the middle of September when my new DDO comes out of training.  I just gotta keep doing what I'm doing for now.  Take the initiative to do more and make the store better than it already is.  The store has already come a long way in the past month and my RDO said that today which is good. Just gotta keep doing what I'm doing.  

  On another note at least there is a breeze tonight.  Just glad to be home. Relaxing a bit with my laptop and obviously my words. Like I said the last time I missed doing this. Just updating about everything and nothing all at once. I do ned to cut down my nails if I'm gonna continue doing this though.  I find it's so much harder to type with such long nails...Sad face. But it is what it is.  I love my nails but sometimes they are a pain in the ass.  Lol

  Kinda wish people still used livejournal. But alas with the age of facebook and myspace was the end of the age of livejournal.  No one cares about talking about there days or venting in long livejournal posts. Somedays you were just itching to see what your other friends had posted while you were away. Now people just use facebook to post cute kittens or puppy pictures. Everything has to be facebook official before it's real.  People have lost the art of just writing for the sheer enjoyment of words on a page. The enjoyment of making things sound good in their own words. I remember when my sheer enjoyment came from creatively writing out a new poem or story back in the day. Actually when I was unpacking after I moved in with Zach I found my folder from my favorite class in High School, creative writing.  It was so much fun reading over everything I wrote for that class. Made me miss that creative side of myself a bit. Sitting for hours and trying to come up with a story, a poem, or just an idea. I think that was when I really thought about using this as my outlet for my creative side. 
  
  Everyone just needs to let go every once in awhile.  I maybe 30 but I'm not dead.  I'm sure that creative side is still there in me. I'll find her again.  Just keep plugging away.  Can't let the normalcy of life determine what you do with your gifts. 

Life as we know it

  • Aug. 12th, 2012 at 5:21 PM
purple flower
This year a lot has changed but all is for the best. I thought it was kinda funny, was talking about livejournal the other night with Zach and here I am finally updating again after like 2 years.  My intentions were to delete the account but there are sometimes I just like to vent about something, or talk about what's been going on.  So for now livejournal you are safe. Lol! So let's see since the last time I updated 2 years ago what's happened. Well Zach and I are back together and happier than ever. I've got a job I actually don't mind going to every day.  Obviously moved back to Michigan from Chicago. I think to be honest I am the happiest I've ever been. Just looking towards the future now.  The past is just that...the past and should be left there. I know this post makes no sense but for some reason makes perfect sense to me. Sometimes just jumbled sentences make the most sense to the person making the senseless post...lol. I actually miss doing this.  Posting randomnes that makes sense to me.  Words on a page that should be heard by no one but me.  Seeing as though I'm pretty sure at this point everyone has abandoned there words on a page. A little TLC playing in the background. paying homage to the 90's today. Gotta kick this smoking so much when I'm sitting in the patio though.  

Happy with Life for today

  • Nov. 13th, 2010 at 12:43 AM
give me some
  See when I feel like actually posting in my livejournal after quite some time of nothing I have just that ....Nothing to complain about.  I mean today was a great day off.  I'm looking forward to Thanksgiving and having family out here.  I think I truely need it.  I need to see family and possibly come back to Michigan for a couple of days.  I really do miss everyone.  I can't believe it's been a year since I moved out here to Illinois now.  It's been a long road to happiness out here let me tell you. 
   For quite some time I wanted to move back.  I won't lie to you.  But I stuck it out and see where it got me.  Ok I won't lie when it comes to the job front I am always looking for something better.  Cause well let's face it no one wants to work in a restaurant  there entire life.  Especially not the one I work for.  But other than that I've got a nice townhouse to call home.  I've got a car that runs, and I have my Auti monster that meets me at the door everyday. 
    What more do I need in life.  Well maybe a man but I am working on that one as we speak.  i figured I had dated all of the men in Michigan and it was time to try out a new state.  So let's see if there are any nice guys out in Illinois.  Verdict is still out thus far. 
   The couple of dates that I have gone on thus far have been disastrous .  I guess the things that bugs me lately is that a lot of my friends are either married or in a long time relationship and are happy.  And I'm getting older and still haven't found that special someone.  I mean don't get me wrong i'm comfortable with myself enough to realize I don't need a man perse but damnit it would be nice.

Completely Random

  • Nov. 12th, 2010 at 1:20 AM
foolish me
And you don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on I won't let go till it bleeds

It's day's like this

  • Mar. 18th, 2010 at 9:32 PM
foolish me
 So day off that I probably should have just worked. I accomplished nothing and am kinda feeling a little down today.  I don't know why I mean there's not much for me to be depressed about. And Zach was right the missing my friends in Michigan does come in waves. Like today I miss everyone a lot but don't know why it was triggered today.  Back to work tomorrow for a couple of hours which will just be filled by Passover orders and such.  At least I'm good at my job.  Not like 90%  of the rest of the staff there.  They are definitely just there so we have staff. Just some of these girls are so dumb.  And they crumble under pressure. Could never see myself hanging out with any of them outside of work.  Kinda sad when you get older your job is just a place to go to pay the bills.  You don't necessarily make any new friends and you sure as hell just punch the clock and then come home to your dog. Maybe I'll go read my book.  I'm just so bored today.  I don't know what's wrong with me.  I mean come on how long has it been since I posted anything here and yet I find myself typing an entry. 

So it's been a very long time

  • May. 11th, 2009 at 10:45 AM
foolish me
 I haven't been on here in years but felt the need to write to tonight.  I've got so much going on with Zach asking me to move to Chicago and live there it's just a lot to think about and I seem to be out of other avenues to to talk to about this as I have changed my mind so many times now......I don't know which way is up or down on this one. I wish I knew what to do.  Part of me wants to grow up....and be an adult.  But there is the other part that has fun doing what she does now.  I'm the only one who can make this choice and I wish someone else could make it for me......

To do List for today

  • Jul. 30th, 2007 at 2:12 PM
foolish me
*Look up flights or other mode of transport to go to chicago in October
*Clean Car
*Check Netflix
*EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN
*Do Laundry


What is wrong with this picture.....???????  Yeah I'm not really gonna have an emotional breakdown cause even though I'm not happy about what happened and I do agree for the reason I am single now I am and there is really nothing I can do about it.  That and I think I'm in the numb stage cause I just really can't feel anything.  I want a new tattoo maybe I'll go to Port Huron and get one.  
 ~~~~He's not worth my tears cause as everyone told me, I am so much better than  he will ever be.  Maybe If I tell myself that enough times I'll truely start to believe it.

@--------------> Doubtful

Life has been wonderful lately.

  • Mar. 2nd, 2007 at 4:01 PM
foolish me
It's about fucking time my life didn't suck.  I have a great boyfriend who has gotta be the sweetest guy in the world.  My birthday is in a month and a half and I'm not gonna hide for my 25th birthday....I have realized I am going to embrace it.  This may shock the hell out of some of you. In the past 5 years I have not had a bank account.......Well I do now.  That was the biggest accomplishment lately......Yes Zach I finally did it.  My life is seriously improving everyday more and more I like who I am and what I have become.  Well I mean I still hate work but you can't like everything.  Let's see what else....oh I'm going out to Chicago for St. Patrick's day.....which should be awesome.  Can't wait.

Question??

  • Jan. 13th, 2007 at 8:32 PM
foolish me
Why is it so hard to be mean to people. It should be easier when they live states away. It should be easier. I swear I am just a glutton for punishment. That and it has been brought to my attention that I have become vain. And ....I agree I have. And don't care. (where is my mirror.....LOL) But other than that not much is going on I had today off and that was nice. Went out to dinner with grandma and aunt connie. Did my laundry and yesterday I worked and got my nails done. I know these last posts have not been about much but ehhh I shall make some more posts later.

I swear

  • Jan. 9th, 2007 at 7:39 PM
foolish me
Everyday just seems to get better and better lately.....Tom is aawesome and he just always makes me smile. I can't get the stupid smile off of my face. No matter how ahrd I try I am actually happy. I was at Snooks last night and Ray Ray gave me probably the best advice of anyone.....As long as I'm happy fuck everyone else at work....they are not hanging out with him. I am and as long as I'm happy that's all that matters. And the great part is I am.